Monday, July 5, 2010

Hiding

By Mister Curie

My aunt and uncle are coming to visit for a couple of days. They will be here this afternoon. I was up last night trying to rid the house of evidence of our lack of orthopraxy. I'm leaving the Mormon History books on the shelves (but I took off the LGBT-themed ones), and I've boxed up the coffee machine and the espresso maker, as well as the boxes of tea. This morning I remembered that the user's manuals for the coffee maker were in the utensil drawer, and I moved those too, but now I feel nervous that there is some other "evidence" lying around that I've missed. This feels wrong. It has been very freeing to be on the East Coast far away from family to allow my "apostasy" to flourish and to stop worrying so much what others think. It doesn't feel right to be forcing myself back into the closet in my own home. I shouldn't feel such social pressure to conform. Yet, I'm not sure what to do. I don't think I want my parents finding out about my loss of faith through my aunt and uncle. I want to find a more appropriate way for them to find out. This is frustrating.


I feel like I'm in one of those dramatic scenes of a movie when the protagonist suddenly has an "aha!" moment and realizes that this is really messed up (cue epiphany music). That, or I'm in a comedy and I'm going to be nervously grabbing offending materials trying to hide it as they visit us in our home, inevitably leading to a huge blow-up once they make the discovery, hopefully there is a "feel good" ending.

6 comments:

  1. Ha ha, it sounds like an I love lucy episode. Have fun. You'll love your life even more when they are gone.

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  2. lol I love your comment Clark. I feel the same way when I post comments on my facebook. So many AUnts and Uncles on there who would be more than happy to phone home the moment they see some sort of "apostasy". Good luck with the visit, and just enjoy the time with them.

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  3. If they do find any evidence, just play it cool! On a recent trip to the store with Grandma, my 5 year old informed her that "Daddy want a coffee maker." My wife went white, and grandma said something about "I've thought about getting one to, to see if Hot Chocolate tastes better in it.

    If they think you're still practicing, they'll probably find a way to justify it themselves without too much help! Good Luck!

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  4. I remember that feeling of it all feeling wrong to continue pretending. There is value in pretending though (especially if you are still figuring things out). Good luck! (((Hugs for you and Madame Curie)))

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  5. Until your little one starts talking about some of the parades he has been to lately...

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  6. My wife has not just a mostly plastic coffee maker but a very heavy metal expresso machine, no mean task to hide away; yet every time her sister visits, I have to lug it somewhere. It's really very funny. But we don't put away the reproduction of a Cranach nude or those discreetly nude statues we have. After all, we do have some limits ; )

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